My story can be seen as both heart warming and spine chilling. It is now 2011, I only learned of Andreas death about two months ago, I did not know her as Lea, I dont know who Lea De Mae is, I only know of Andrea Absolonova who I am positive is my Andrea. This story will be difficult for the non spiritual to accept. In July of 2004 while leading a patrol behind enemy lines in Afganistan a landmine quickly converted me to swiss cheese. Details are classified including the country I was air lifted to for extended triage but we can say it was in Europe and not the most obvious England. The combination of blood loss, pain, and shock manifested in coma and there i stayed. Mark the date and think of its significance (july 2004). It has been said that for every one person in the world they have been given one soul mate and that god must provide at least one meeting of those two people before the death of one or both. The two may not know why they ran into each other, they may not speak the same language or live in the same part of the world but the spiritual connection will be undeniable and small barricades like language don't matter. Only on rare, very rare occasion do soul mates meet and marry, this is why all the divorce as we search for our soul mates. the meeting of soul mates also rarely results in a relationship but god will have fullfilled his requirment. bear with me. The coma persisted into december 2004, the only memories of the coma are some strange dreams that seemed to occur shortly before wake up. I was seated in almost like an office but very white, I sat before two men at a desk, or what looked like men but their eyes were transparent and their mouths did not move when they spoke. They asked me questions about my life and if i thought i lived it right. I asked why they were asking, if i'm dead can't we just get on with it. I looked to the right and there was a girl i'd never seen before watching what was going on. I asked them who she was and they said she would tell me, I asked if SHE was dead, they said not yet. I asked why is she interested in these questions and they said she would be the most important person in and of my life, she wants to know about me as this will be her only few minutes with you. I turned and said who are you, she spoke and her lips stayed still, she spoke a foreign language but i understood her, she said she can't tell me yet, if i tell you I will have to go and leave you here alone. I turned back to the men they said I could be excused while they decided, decided what? The one in white said that he had to allow me five minutes to speak to this girl before they could do what they needed to do. I stood up and walked over to her, she was angelic looking but she said she was in a great deal of pain, she had hair missing and it appeared as though medical procedures had been recently performed on her but the results were beautiful though they looked exactly the same as ugly things in the world. In her eyes i could see the blue sky and clouds, they were the saddest eyes i had ever seen. What is your name I said. I only ever want you to know me as Andrea (there were no andreas in my life so it was strange for me to get this name from her as i was sure i was dreaming). I don't know what you mean. Its just who i really am, she said in her strange language. Why are you here andrea, why do you care about me and why do you look so sad. I don't know why i care about you but i do, I'm sad because one of us is going that way and one is going that way. why can't we both go that way i said. because I am only here because the man in the white suit said I had to come here to see you and that its not justified even for one of us to go that way. He didn't know you would be so open to coming here after your accident, he needed to make it so i came here too before you went that way..she pointed to the long long hallway that went nowhere. he said one of us deserves the memory of the other. andrea i don't understand and where are you going? she started off down the hallway. I'm going that way she said. why? so that you don't have to she said. I want to go with you or at least let me go and you go back. No she said, you don't deserve this, you are a soldier and what you did was done is total selflessness. I was in pain she said, i'm not in pain now. I tried to keep talking but couldn't she overpowered me, she said go back now but don't try to find me, just remember what i said, I am andrea. you aren't making sense i tried to scream. her hair started to grow back, she turned one last time to me and gave me this look i'll never forget she put her head down and eyes up and then she was gone. I ran back to the desk to demand they let me go with her but now its just two female nurses sitting there, I can hear one say "here he is, here he is, he's emerging" on the p.a. system I hear something like CODE 3 in critical for reemergence. I look around for andrea but there is just people in pyjamas everywhere. We thought you were never coming back someone says, I wish i didn't i have a wicked headache in the back of my skull, my vision is blurry i can't read the clock but the date on the wall is DEcember 9, 2004.
As an artist the first thing i did was paint Andrea as i remembered her, i made several examples i can't figure out how to post them but i will asap.
I did not see andreas face again for seven years until i read a very sad blog about a girl who died of cancer. It was gut wrenching for me and i experienced emotions i was unaware i had in me, experts have said i reemerged as an emphath psychic as handling the deceaseds properties i experience their feelings and emotions and sometimes auditory phenomena. When I saw the photo said to be andreas favorite of her my jaw dropped as that was the same face and facial pose I had painted.
you are all free to process this story as you see fit, I have no way of benefiting from doing this nor would i profiteer from her death.
I am here for two reasons, one, i would like to offer to andreas friends the painting of her that is being treated as a master, the other two are prelims but if someone wanted them they could have them. I was hoping someone could contact andreas mother or sister, i've tried but contact info is old. I'm going to recreate the famous photo of andrea and i will post and talk about its progress as it is painted on this forum. This master, which i will make my mona lisa can be dealt with in two ways, i will offer it to immediate family of hers or if we can band together and put the screws to sylvia and monica to perhaps write their names on it and do the lipstick kiss then it could be sold likely for a great deal of money to benefit andreas mother or sister who i understand is getting married and has a young baby.
I have portraits i have done of jeanna fine, kayden kross, anita blond and sylvia saint (in progress), i'll post them all for interested types to see my style and i can talk about how they will influence the final lea de mae master. to illustrate my sincerity here I will flat refuse any solicitation of price or purchase of any work by anyone except the subjects themselves. Prelims exist for all of them and those are free to good homes. the important thing now is ensuring that andreas family has everything they need whether it be a mememto as meaningful as an oil portrait to keep andreas memory alive or it be monitary supplementation for what i imagine to have been very expensive times which may still be owed on. There is great money in autographed original art. I can't give details but i got one adult star to sign her painting and a gentleman in vancouver who owns a dance bar paid $5000 to the spca in order to have me release it to him, it hangs in his bar.
thanks and i will get those pics up and if anyone reads this with access to andreas mom please tell her the master of the one almost done is only a couple weeks from being shippable if she would like to have it. It depicts andrea as a star in the sky. I need this for myself, i have this insane need to do something for her family, I assume andrea passed that to me if in fact my calculations are correct about my "dream". take care everyone and lets not only remember her as lea, she was a girl next door too.
I thought for all of you out there who believe as I do that andrea was not of this earth that I should share an observation i just made. In preparation to begin creating the stencil for the painting of her famous picture (note to the photographer, I am not forgetting you good sir and I will contact you with respect to copyright to discuss what you determine to be a suitable end state for the effort, I guarantee if it is sold it will be sold for charitable benefit with proceeds going to either andreas mother, sister or anything those who were close to her deem fit, I have no intention of profiteering in any way via copyright infringment, obviously in this case we will be discussing picture context and content rather than exact image as i do not paint hyper realism) I had spent about two hours staring at every contour of her perfect face trying to figure out what it was I was seeing but not seeing. Finally I found it and again I was brought to tears by this beauty I believe I encountered seven years ago. In the photo Andreas left eye pupil is in the shape of a decorative heart. How could I have been so shut out of the world to have been down and out at the same time as her and be not able to help. For gods sake I was a captain in the canadian armed forces, a couple informal I do's at a city hall and Andrea is in a military hospital in the cleanest country in the world with all expenses paid. I've done crazier **** and I think a guy could get over marrying Andrea just so she could live. Desperate times call for desperate measures, i can't believe there was not a man in this massive world in either the u.s., canada, england or germany that didn't make that offer to her family, canada and england are non brainers, free medical. Its no wonder I hate the world, the body of a reincarnate saint is dying but no one gets up from in front of the television to fix the problem, and yes it is that simple. If a military officer from britain or canada became family to andrea, lucie and their mother, true marriage or not, doesn't matter, there would have been a hercules there for her the next day Its absolute priority if family of military are in danger overseas be it political, medical, whatever they are immediately extracted, even if force must be used. Why can we not do anything to help someone we don't know. I guess though if it wasn't for my coma and the "dream" I would not have known who lea de mae was, maybe i wouldn't have cared. All i know now is that after finding all this great information about her I know she is my andrea from the dream.
If any psychologists or the like read this and can suggest how andrea got in my head for me to place her in that dream having not ever seen a movie of hers or having ever seen her face. You can use big words I have three degrees with quite a bit of psych in there.
If you have an answer then i implore you to break my heart. The last month since finding the photos of andrea and matching them to my memory has been a pretty happy time for me, it gave me an answer and made me feel like there is one person in the world that gave a **** about me and for no other reason than she was incapable of not caring for anyone. The enlightened exist but they are few, I can sense them, I'm sure andrea was on her way to enlightment had she survived.
I need a psychic who is capable of conjuring and interaction, I need to know if Andrea is cognitively aware of my dream because if she is I owe my life to her.
Does anyone close to her think that giving her soul that someone elses could go on is something she would do? Also does anyone have the exact time of death? I'm going to bet its withing seconds or minutes of my emergence from coma. I may sound like a lunatic but this is very real to me. We have no idea of even a fraction of what the universe is capable of.
If anyone is interested at some point I can speak on my experiments on induced near death experience at the university where ketamine and propofol among other drugs were used to simulate death (yes i'm a physician, just a really weird one, damn handsome too, how does that sound sylvia?lol, oh my god i've never even seen a new born baby cuter than you, you're so sweet you rot my teeth)
take care everyone I will have the beginning of the art work ready to show tomorrow. A director friend is going to film the painting of it and set it to nice music so everyone can watch lea come to life again.
again,
brett.
if my calculations are correct the above photo is the work on the large andrea portrait I mentioned earlier. She is so beautiful its hard to concentrate on the painting. AFter several emotional breakdowns I decided to quit for the night, it was hard to be looking at her again after seven years. I decided to stray from the photo and instead on a wall in the background she is getting a fantasy style blue sky with birds of paradise, it suits her facial expression. I want everyone to remember that right now this is what i have to give to andreas memory so I am doing it for everyone and anyone who wants can have a say, i may not listen but i want to hear if you think you have a better idea for color etc.. I say for everyone but for sure I'll give it to whoever gets sylvia saint to be my date for my 20th grad reunion lol, i'll accept monica as well, or both. I didn't even know sylvia was a porn starlet, i'd see her pics and think she was famous for being the cutest girl in the world lol, now thats a gig if you can get it.
the portraits on my facebook page are all prelims and concept paintings of other masters that have flown the coup to their respective homes/walls, if anyone is interested in having one just let me know, they are rather unpolished and were done to determine colors and tones and compositions. There are two lea de mae's, a concept and a test of a different medium, the one with the forest backdrop is an unfinished master. the little sylvia saint one is a concept and unfinished, the jeanna fine is a complete prelim, the sky lopez is an unfinished master. my facebook is under bremac73@hotmail.com but i bring attention to that only so that you can see the lea de mae's and her colleagues. the impressionist lea de mae would be very acceptable on a wall it just needs varnish, it is the true original of the image i had of the girl from the dream, its got the stars in the back. i changed it when i saw leas favorite pic of herself by changing the direction of the eyes and the clothes, hair not complete in any, the others the unfinished nature is kind of part of the artistic allure, remember too they were all painted seven years ago before i had ever seen lea de mae, that is a strong story behind art and is the conversation peice you need when showing it. If they were finished masters the price tag would be high enough that you'd be cool to own one, I will give them to loyal friends and fans of andrea all you have to do is ask. If you are sylvia you can have them all and i'll finish them asap for you lol. I'll ask that if you visit these pics you do not pay attention to the other work on there that is unrelated, I am here for andrea not myself, they are just there because i need help from other artists its not a gallery. be sure to read descriptions so you know the level of completedness of each painting especially the lea de maes
-- Edited by bremac on Thursday 10th of March 2011 10:09:21 AM
first attached painting this is the first session result painting andrea. Those of you familiar with art will recognize this as an impression, a style of painting not hung up on details but rather how you would see her at a glance. The hair and clothes are just "blocked in" meaning the space has been reserved and approximated but its not yet painted. I have not decided on a background. I didn't want to go realism on this, i think andrea would find that boring and a waste of time if you can just use a camera, besides the best photogs in the land have photographed her and perfected her look, she would want to see somethign different. She will be glazed to lighten her complexion and hair and a few details put in that really make her her.
the second is a redo of the initial painting done upon awaking in 2004. this one still is not complete, the hair has not been done nor the background finished, I have been to scared to revisit this one because i am not sure i can handle it emotionally, i do owe it to her and myself to finish it. This is after one session of two hours.
the third is called "a belated rose for andrea", it is an impression of a white rose on a four foot by four foot canvas. it symbolizes how much i wish i could have given her a rose during her life.
-- Edited by bremac on Saturday 12th of March 2011 09:22:47 AM
Myself and another artist here in canada have started a project to benefit andreas memory. I have a few photos of works in progress that will be auctioned in 2012 after the stars have autographed them. Thus far four artists have agreed to contribute and we have a firm committment from a very famous vivid contract girl to allow recreation of one of her images as well as an authenticated autograph. The CEO of another adult video production company has also endorsed the concept and agreed to help, he has access to and contracts with some of todays biggest names. The first image "Porn Queens in OIL" is the promotional image. The second is an abstraction of andrea, beautifully done in oil on canvas by a west coast artist, the fourth will be one of my own contributions, it is very immature at only the first sitting of about one hour being put in, it is a recreation of a photo of andrea (of course, you didn' texpect me to paint anyone else did you) with auburn hair, she was in a beautiful dress but because of how low cut it was I decided to leave that out as that is not the point or concept of the project. The third is another snap shot i got from an artist who quickly laid down the basics of a sky lopez portrait, it is far from complete. Finally an abstraction of shyla stylez which is very stylized and i think very beautiful, done by a good friend and complete, I allowed the bust line as it is an abstraction not meant to be a turn on.
the reason I am being so square about this is because i want to bring to attention that these girls are also exceptional ladies in many cases and their stories will accompany their portraits and autographs.
at this point we don't know who we will ask to autograph andreas paintings but suggestions have come back as Jeanna Fine, Sylvia Saint (but likely we will be hoping to paint her), Lucie, Monica, Daniella, the three remaining dream team members, one person suggested managment or a director at private but there is something else i would rather see them do with a pen, one ambitious person suggested larry flynt and although i'm sure he would do it, its just two words, access to him via phone or email must be impossible. i expected to be dismissed by almost everyone when we started this but incredibly there is no one on earth it seems that doesn't love andrea so with luck we'll pull it off.
If anyone knows any artists that would be interested in contributing and possibly get some serious coverage send them to me here.
-- Edited by bremac on Saturday 19th of March 2011 07:55:13 AM
It seems memories of Andrea are fading, I find this very sad, there seems to only be lookie loo traffic reading posts in the forum. I'll make this my last contribution, I'll remember her in my own way. I'm unable to even raise anyone as a benefactor to the now fully in motion porn queens project, five artists all working as we speak, tentatives from a couple vivid alumni, now talking to traci lords, a confirmed from a very big vivid girl, its happening and no one will return our inquiries so we can give them money. These peices will sell on the basis of the autograph, like anything else, it would be a shame to not be able to put it towards the inspiration of the project. Maybe i'll go to the czech republic myself and carve the damn sculpture. I'm hoping it is just a language barrier, i'm sure the family and friends have not forgotten. Tried victor, email not sent-returned ???? My last option is to try Chris, as a fellow artist i'm sure he can make a couple minutes to talk to me and find a benefactor, he seemed to know her well. I finally got the nerve to watch "lea de mae" in action, knowing it would be upsetting I still hit xnxx and typed her name in. Not a lot came up so I did some p2p downloading....Wow, she was hardcore, I tried to develop an artistic appreciation for what i was watching but I more just wanted to turn it off and remember andrea from my dream, I now know what was meant by only know me as andrea.
I'm attaching a couple more images, these are both contributions of mine, we have Hanna Hilton and of course Lea de Mae, I broke down and decided to do photo realism, loose photo realism but realism anyway, these are both not done, this is the base, touching and background and glazing will happen when they dry. lea's one eye iris is a little small but hanna is pretty much correct geographically.
the you tube movie about the project and some footage of painting lea is finished and will be uploaded soon, i'll key word "porn, queens, oil, lea, de mae, andrea"
I will check back but from here the next time I will post will be either a response or to announce the project is done or scrapped.
The project has gotten off to a good start, although we are still working on the portraits I had decided to do a couple picasso uh "remakes", not counterfeits, I wouldnt' do that. "Nude in an armchair" 1937 is an abstract representational piece depicting his mistress nude. The piece has been sold and is one I donated to this cause. There will be some authentication proceedings to ensure its original (not a print) and also for copy waiver, then upon payment if I can't find anyone to send it to it will go to glioblastoma research.
